I am so excited for spring semester! Words cannot even begin to describe my excitement. I was so happy that I got to plan out my own schedule because I will only be at school two days a week, Tuesday and Thursday! And you know what that means…I have Monday, Wednesday and Friday open! Free time, how I have missed you! On top of that, I drastically cut back my schedule. At the beginning of this semester I was taking 21 units (crazy right?!) but during the spring semester 9 units are devoted towards my communication major and 2.5 are to knock out my P.E requirements which add up to 11.5 units! Of course I cannot forget my internship which will be somewhere between 3-5 units. Oh my goodness I am just overjoyed, it is like my community college schedule all over again!
Also, due to the fact that speech and debate and theater do not work well together, I have decided to cut out theater. Yes I am kind of sad about that but my entire high school career was dedicated to theater, I went to the Orange County School of the Arts (formerly High School of the Arts). It’s time for a change and I believe that this will be a positive change in my life.
Since I have so much free time, I am excited to put more of my energy into things that really matter such as school, work, and my own personal sanity. My commitments will now lie in the following areas:
Speech and Debate
Prep for the Miss OC Scholarship Pageant
Startup Business (this surprisingly won’t take up a lot of time)
Possibly take up Japanese again
(I really like lists if you haven’t noticed). With so much free time, all of this is totally possible. I can also take long walks and hike and go on adventures, I am so excited! I am an eternal optimist who sees life as full of possibilities and adventures and fun. Bring it on spring semester, I am so ready for you!
I don’t know what it is but I have been thinking about the past a lot lately and it amazes me how far I have come. I was thinking back to the time when I graduated high school which was back in 2011. At the time I got accepted into Cal State Fullerton’s Radio/TV/Film program and I was so excited to start. But that July, I get a call and they tell me that my admission has been revoked because I didn’t pass my math class. I was devastated, I literally felt like my life was over. I remembered that I registered for Irvine Valley College (a community college) a few months prior because my friend said I should, so my mom and I packed up and moved closer to my new school.
I wasn’t looking forward to starting school at all. Most of the people I went to high school with got accepted into these big name universities and this left me feeling like such a loser. Unenthusiastically, I attended school and put most of my energy into my new job at an upscale bowling alley. I didn’t have a car so I would take public transportation or bike 7 miles to get to work. My daily routine went something like this: wake up, go to school, sit and not socialize with anyone, bike to work, work eight hours with no break, bike home, sleep and repeat.
I was looking through my stuff one day and I found an old journal of mine and in that journal I found my life’s “To Do” list which I wrote down when I was 15 years old. I said that I wanted to take a sewing class, retake French II and geometry, read more books, start a club, learn Japanese, get a tutor, get out more, and make jewelry.There I was, three years later and I realized that I accomplished everything on that list. It was incredible. I immediately started making my new list and on that list I wrote the following:
Here I am again looking at that to do list and I have realized that I have accomplished most of the things on that list. I am currently in the beginning stages of starting my business (I’ll tell you more about that later) and I may have to put off going to Japan for financial reasons, however, I once again feel incredibly accomplished. I’ll start my new “To Do” list when I turn 21 and on that list it will say to go to grad school and get engaged (perhaps that is wishful thinking) but hey you never know. Through this experience I have learned to trust in God because He knows what is best for us and that we should always have faith in Him even when we feel like the world is crashing down on us, because in reality, it really isn’t, God just sees the bigger picture.
It’s heels week! I am dedicated to wearing heels every day this week. Why? Because heels make me feel powerful, they make me feel confident. They make me feel awesome.
So why is heels week important? It is important because heels bring you the confidence needed when you aren’t quite feeling all that great and let’s be real, this hasn’t been a good week. So far, the results have proven great. I feel like the all powerful and mighty ninja warrior woman that I already am but now this power has been taken to a new level. Plus, the number of compliments that I have been receiving has skyrocketed. And hey, who doesn’t like compliments, they just make you feel that more awesome.
For all my lady friends out there, if you are not having a good week, consider having yourself a heels week. Before I started my heels week, I was feeling so incredibly down and distraught, I felt like the world was caving in. But with heels week, I feel like I can take over the entire world! Beyonce says it best in her music video and I linked it below. Thank you Beyonce.
Who Run The World - Beyonce
Think about it, models and beauty queens wear heels. It elongates the legs and brings the confidence needed to get the job done. We all have a jobs and when you don’t feel like you’re doing as good as you should at it, consider having yourself a heels week, it’s good for the soul and good for humanity.
I have been so busy lately that I haven’t had time to do the things I love; these include (but are not limited to: cooking elaborate meals, watching anime, riding a bike, reading a manga in a coffee shop, hiking, yoga, trying new restaurants, listening to Japanese music, and Google everything that catches my curiosity. I decided to combine two of these things today, I went on yet another yoga hiking expedition but this time it was different.
Yes some things were the same such as the vulture (which I originally thought was a hawk) came flying over once it saw me reach the top of French Hill, I had to wave my arms in the air to shoo it away, it eventually worked as it realized I wouldn’t be dying any time soon. But it is like I had a Moses moment on top of the hill. Today’s hike really put life in perspective for me because my yoga session helped me to stay calm and focused and I was then able to clearly think about what exactly I wanted in life and how I was going to get it.
I mean yes, I am a very goal oriented person and always think about my future but today was just different. On top of the hill it was so silent and peaceful, I felt the wind in my hair and just looked down at all of Orange County. I thought about what I wanted in life. Originally I wanted to go into international broadcast journalism, I wanted to travel the world and report the biggest stories. I have always had conflicting thoughts about this dream as I have always wanted to settle down and have a family but after today’s hike, I know exactly what I want to do. I want to be an entrepreneur! I have always wanted to be my own boss (Fun fact: Do you know that I have my business license? I haven’t done anything with it though). My goal is to combine new and upcoming social media with international news and make it fun and relevant for today’s generation. I also realized that I want to settle down in Irvine so myself and my business would be located here. Of course I have had more realizations up on French Hill but those two are the most significant. I also had an urge to start eating super healthy, I have a $15 budget to Sprouts this week so I will be venturing over there later today.
I realized life is awesome, I want to live life like the Europeans do (afternoon naps, enjoying life, taking it easy), and make more time for myself. As an only child I used to always have time to myself but I have been deprived of it and need to make it a priority again. When I find some spare time, I will most certainly be doing this again.
So I got another part time job, I am now officially working 3 part time jobs! Woo hoo! My new job is being a coach (sounds more like a teacher to me) for young children. I will be teaching them public speaking skills, something that I have a lot of experience in. This will be a 15 week course late on Saturday afternoons, did I mention that it starts this Saturday?
I am literally being thrown into this. I walk into the interview and I already got the job. She begins telling me what I will be doing, not in detail, but in generalizations. So apparently I will be teaching a class, a class! I thought that I was just tutoring children. I will stand there for 60 minutes for 15 weeks teaching children the importance of public speaking and confidence. I had no idea that I will be playing such an important role. I mean I can totally handle this but I wasn’t expecting it at all. I will be having a crash course on Thursday to prepare me for this endeavor.
I am very happy that I have another job as I needed it quite badly. I am also happy that it is something that doesn’t require much of my time. I was really dreading getting a normal job such as working in retail or the food industry; I have done that before and have hated every minute of it. This job combines three things I truly enjoy: teaching, children, and public speaking so I am very excited. I will update you all about how my new third part time job is going!
This speech and debate thing has started to take over my life. I was at a tournament this weekend, the weekend prior, and have another one scheduled for this coming weekend; however, I can’t handle having another tournament three weeks in a row.
Yes I love this activity and yes I find it incredibly rewarding but I do not want to make it my life. Right now I am needing to focus more energy on school and work and a little less of extracurricular activities. I also plan on competing in the presidential showcase and have to prep for the Miss Orange County Scholarship Pageant so I must prepare for these things well in advance. I also have to participate in the theater show coming up so hopefully I can be a crew member, better yet get rid of my theater scholarship all together and increase my speech and debate scholarship and devote more of my time and energy into the activity I find my happiness in.
I did get back from a tournament this past weekend where Concordia dominated the competition. We pretty much took every major prize home; for example our debate team won first, Carrie “aka The Beast” won best speaker, and Concordia accumulated the most points taking home the sweepstakes award. I on the other hand didn’t do as well as I hope I would but that is completely okay. I know that if I want to succeed and do well at this activity I just need to devote more of my time and energy into this. Planning and prioritizing for next semester is key and I think that I have a good grip on everything so far so wish me luck.